Work, work, work, work, work~

Life. If it is unfair for everyone, does it sounds fair?

1 or 2 years ago, I felt bitter about life. I felt like it’s ridiculous for me to work full time and study part-time, even more, ridiculous people ask me why did I go for such option when I can afford to study full time. Hey, I know my background can afford to study full time but the thing is maybe my parents want us to be independent and pay for our own school fee. That gave me no choice but to work for my school fees. (Stop asking this, thank you)

I started working and on days that I scroll my social media, all I see is how my friends are just enjoying their student life etc. and I’m just in the office dealing with meetings, projects, rushing to meet the dateline etc.

What made it worse is the schooling at night, 1 week 3 lessons with many add-ons assignments and crazy short dateline. Midnight oil almost every other night to get schoolwork done. Indeed, It’s tough.

I became fatigued; my days started with work and ended with school, days that school is out, and I’ll simply head back home and sleep. I became kind of anti-social to a point where I started to feel bitter and rant to my non-chanted parents to a point where I felt that ranting and feeling bitter is not going to solve anything and it won’t make me feel better. I started to learn how to dance in the rain, started to ask people out and head out to have fun on days that doesn’t have lessons. I felt better after awhile.

Of course, I am able to manage my work previously. Currently, after changing to this new job I felt a little worry for the upcoming semester because haven’t really gotten a hang of my job. Nothing seems to be getting better for my current job, not going to mention it but I hope things will get better.

It’s a very different and new job for me but I think with time, I’ll manage it well like my previous job. I just need some encouragement, I think? Currently just feeling rather depressed about my current job and all I can think of is to run away, but I don’t want to, I wanna face it and handle it. (Feeling whiny like a little girl now~~~)

// Probably some comfort might help